MYSTERIOUS LOVE LETTER TO MY FUTURE WIFE

Under this Fig tree my imaginations come to live, thinking and wondering about an image filled with shadows of a lady i plan to make my own, i wonder if you would ever become a reality ? you are just an imprint in my sick mind, all i have is puzzles of your innate beauty, most times i feel like i don't need your touch but when the world rests on my shoulders drowning me , i wish you can cast your hooks and lift me up out of the depths of despair, i wish you are here to share my burden, in moments of silence and desperation i seek you , i seek you between moment of breath and moments of exhale but you are no where to be found, you are but an imagination, its difficult to understand reality cause all i vision is us in lovers embrace, i have kept my self salty so that you won't loose any taste in me, i know you are the sugar that can spice us up, we are such an amazing ingredient of lust, i have starved my taste patiently waiting to savage you, what a sweet smelling insense you are, an ingredient of delusion, i thirst for you, like a million year old vampire seeks for blood.
As i wait in silence my mind plays episodes of breathtaking moments that we both could share, places we would consummate and make sweet passionate memories , the thoughts of you is like the greatest HIGH i already feel above the cloud with the blur image of your soul , i hope by now you must have figured out how passionate i am about love , it makes me so sad to pour out my heart but only to understand you are only a vision i once dreamed of.
Am hoping that the day i finally meet you that it would rain but i guess its not rain but heaven crying because a warrior and a princess have discovered there nakedeness such a seamless illusion of wet souls, then i wonder when we kiss , i guess there will be lightning in the sky breaking the yoke of depression , rejection and loneliness that have lingered between us all this while , i picture you as an ECSTATIC ART, a STATUE OF LIBERTY to my soul, am not an artist i would have sketched what i muster in my mind , you are a sculptured phantasmagorical goddess of beauty blissfully blowing me away into ecstacy but your airy figure bring me to reality of lust , my heart throbs even without seeing you i am been held spell bound by just a bewildered thoughts of shadow, you are like the wind so peaceful, blissful, filled with innocence and charm am already lost in the thoughts of you , please come and free me from this endless loop of lust, like a deep well come and draw me back to reality and hold me in your arms hope they are strong enough to hold me cause am a work of fiction, if you feel what i feel then place your palm under your bossom and feel my heart beat against yours.
#COME SAVE ME CAUSE AM LOST IN THOUGHTS OF WHAT I THINK OF YOU IN MY OWN DEEP CRAZY WORLD.
#I LOVE YOU TILL ETERNITY
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#FEEL THAT NEW YOU
#FEEL THE LOVE
#PROMOTE GOOD MUSIC
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                                                   TRACK LIST : 
 01. 2baba - holy_holy
02. Popito - FEMI Ft Ycce, Kayswitch & Rayce
03. Apostleedj sinzuu ft lil yeaice ft Shan - One and Only
04. Wizkid - Sweet_Love
05. Ed Sheeran - Shape Of You
06. Phyno - So Far So Good
07. Viktoh - Body Bad
08. Di'Ja - Wan Chop
09. Wizkid - Daddy Yo (Feat Efya)
10. Chief Obi Ft Olamide - Carry Go
11. Eugy ft Mr Eazi - Body
12. Phyno - Okpeke
13. Skales ft. Burna Boy - Temper (Remix)
14. Tekno - Pana (prod. Krizbeatz)
15. Tekno - BE (prod. Sarz)
16. WizKid-Come-Closer ft.-Drake
17. Wizkid - Opoju
18. Dr SID - We Up
19. Kelly Jamani - Tear Rubber
20. R2Bees-ft-Wizkid - Tonight
21. Runtown - For Life
22. Tekno - Diana
23. Reekado Banks – Problem
24. Burna_Boy-Rock Your Body
25. Davido - IF
26. Iyanya - Hold On
27. Vybz Kartel ft. Wizkid - Wine To The Top (Clean)
28. Wizkid_-_Ghetto_Youth
29. Yemi Alade - Charliee
30. Zoro - Landlady
31. Ceeza Mill - Rotate
32. Seyi_Shay_-_Yolo_Yolo
33. Deejay_Jmasta_X_Phyno_Adim_Bad_A_Minute
34. Away - P-Square
35. Runtown - Mad Over You
36. Mr Eazi - Hollup
37. Lil Yeaice - my baby
38. Tekno - Yawa (prod. Masterkraft)
39. DJ-Spinall-ft.-Olamide-Gimmie-Luv
40. Lil Kesh - No Fake Love
41. Olamide-Love-No-Go-Die-Prod.-Young-Jonn
42. Ycee-Ft.-Maleek-Berry-Juice
43. Falz - Wehdone Sir
44. SKALES-FT-TEKNO-GIVE-ME-LOVE-PRODUCED-BY-SPELLZ
45. Tiwa Savage - All Over
46. Joe El Ft. Olamide - Yamarita
47. Wande Coal - Ballerz
48. NINIOLA - MARADONA
49. P-square – Nobody Ugly
50. Apostleedj sinzuu ft lil yeaice ft Shan - One and Only
                                         
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NOBODY KNOW TOMORROW

You could never understand what God is doing or how He thinks , if you like stay awake all through the night and day trying to understand His thoughts and pattern , you could never understand HIM.
   One thing you should know is that you should never give up on HIM , even when all you could see is misery , put your trust in HIM , He knows you more than you know your self , He knows even the next memory that would be taking place in your life, HE knows everything
Our role on earth has already been determined before the onset of Life , what matters most in this life is FAITH because without faith we can not please God .
      Fight to stay alive because there is something to be grateful for , the most costliest invisible breath given to us free of charge , remember that nobody know it all and nobody could say he already knows what His or her future would be like  , just believe in a better tomorrow , keep working for the betterment of your self and family , remember that with hard times , which create memories and help us to feed our understanding that life is like music , its not constant . 
           According to the bible in  "Ecclesiastes 9:11-12'' 
 One thing i have realized in this world is fast runners do not always win the race  and the brave does not always win the battle , the wise does not always earn a living , intelligent people do not always get rich , and capable people do not always rise to high positions .
Bad luck happens to 'everyone' , you never know when your time is coming , like birds suddenly caught in a trap , like fish caught in a net , we are trapped at some evil moment when we least expect it . 
           #BUT IN ALL THIS TRIALS AND TRIBULATION JUST KNOW THAT AS LONG AS YOU ARE ALIVE AND WORKING TOWARDS A BETTER TOMORROW JUST KNOW THAT ONE DAY YOU ARE GOING TO SMILE IN HIGH DEFINITION.
#KEEP BELIEVING  
#HAVE FAITH IN GOD

MEMORIES LIVES ON

Memories we create is all that matter in life  , moments we are happy , broken , sad , thrilled , afraid , our first love , first kiss , lost moments , crazy moments , moments we are chasing shadows ,passionate moments ,  moment of tribulation , moments of hardship , moment of massive success , but no matter what moment you seem to be passing through just know that it doesn't last , believe in the Lord cause only Him has control over everything , to survive this life you should have a source of motivation , someone , something , because most of the time in life its not always as we plan it that it turns out to be , that shows us that we are not in total control of what goes on around us , and in our life but what keeps us in focus is our believe , your faith is what builds you  , keep that faith alive , fuel it with positivity and just know that each moment you find your self in just know that its just a dream , you can make wishes and it comes to pass but when it dosen't work as you planned just know that in some dreams there are ups and down , and its all about shaping you into who you are supposed to become , we  have different faces , different birthdays , that is how our burdens , success  , happiness , differ , nothing is complete , because human being is born in imperfection , how can an imperfect creature have a perfect life ? , keep believing in your self and always have a medium for fueling your faith , aspiration , goals , achievements .#I BELIEVE IN A HIGHER POWER #BIG DREAMERS ARE BIG WINNERS #never get lost in this imaginative world , just know that home lives in your heart you just have to find it . 

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ONE AND ONLY

A LOVE AFFAIR FILLED WITH PASSIONATE PIECE OF POETRY TO CALM THE SOUL AND FEEL THE LITTLE WARMTH , AND  DANCE OF LOVE. SOUL CAPTIVATING , COULD WIN A LOVERS HEART JUST BY LISTENING , THE GENRE IS R&B & SOUL WITH A LITTLE SPICE OF EVERYTHING JUST TO  SOOTH YOUR EAR , HEART AND SOUL , DOWNLOAD NOW AND FEEL THAT SPARK OF NEW LOVE . POINT YOUR MIND TO A WHOLE NEW DIMENSION 
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HUMAN DESIRES

"Human desires is like the world of the dead , there is always room for more "
think about this expression above , no matter how much we have achieved in this life we still seek for more , we seek for that new thing , that new car , new house , new cash , new everything , even though we have already achieved what we want but the want and the taste for more never end , i guess that was why Eve lured Adam to eat the forbidden fruit cause even though , they where  given everything they still seek for that which they don't have , knowledge of good and evil from which they brought death upon HUMANITY .
human satisfaction can never be reached until death knocks at our door , this desires is what drive us to roads of many doors . until we learn to be satisfied of the things we have that is when we would know peace , wants and needs  remove the peace of today cause our mind is already set on things far greater , forgetting that we are living in an imaginary world , where nothing is real .
   if you say that the world is real then why is that when we die , we are forgotten , nobody see us on earth , we would become only stories to hearts and ears that cares , where do we go when death visit us , what happens to us when that time comes have we ever thought about that ? .

on the onset of birth we cry out what a wicked world , even though we are born blind but we seen the forces guiding this earth , the bitterness , the horror , , what have we gained from living this miserable life given to us by God , nobody knows what is waiting for them on the other side of death , chasing dreams , chasing a life built in our minds.
have one ever thought that maybe the real life is when we are dead cause when we sleep which is a second death , we visit places we have never been before , sometimes we wake up and we wonder what our dreams have been . we are living a world of fantasy cause all our achievement is from the mind , nobody knows the real truth until his life span expires and what that lies with us is how many souls we have touched and our good deeds .
 what then do we look like when we are gone ,everything we have we leave behind , our clothes , our body ,our houses , cars , mansions , dreams , thoughts , ambition , goals , is lost ,  we struggle everyday thinking about the life we want to live , the places we want to visit , making dreams , ambitions that we don't even know if we can live out , in all my thoughts and findings life is but an imagination , when we are dead that is when reality comes to existence , so thank God for everyday that you have to be awake and do more good than bad cause at the end of this fantasy called life , our good deeds , love , kindness , things that can not be seen by human eyes is what dies with us , and what those things we would be judged with because these things lives within  us .because we are all going to die one day and what you do with everyday of your life determines if you would live eternally .

GOD NEVER FAILS

To all that put there hope in the lord , just know that God would supply your needs , never be dismayed , do not fret , believe that after the night there is morning , after the rain there is sun , do not be rebellious , just know that one day would be a praise day .
#HE CAN DO IT 

YOU CAN'T BREAK MY SPIRIT ITS MY DREAMS YOU TAKE AWAY

Run away from any toxic relationship , if they don't add anything to your life , your dream or your aspiration , cut them loose , not even God would allow a weed to grow in his garden , when you remove the weed that is when you can see the true wheat .

NEVER GIVE UP ON LOVE

We deceive our self everyday telling our self we don't need love , we don't need happiness , all we need is to be comfortable but at the end of the day we find out we truly need love , God made Adam and saw how much Adam was working and he put him in a deep sleep and from his ribs he formed Eve , Man's companion , God didn't give Adam a companion immediately after making him , he gave Adam his companion the moment Adam needed her most , keep believing your soul mate would find you soon .

THE THOUGHTS OF A LONG LOST LOVER

Her love is a morning fragrance of  a fresh healthy rose, the sight and smell of goodness in a blissful morning dew ,  poets describe this kind of love as an emotion that we can't control , one that overwhelms logic and common sense , had my mind caught in a perplexed embrace of lost , who can save me from her charm , my mind longs to play a movie of delusion of past and future occurrence with her all laced up in love embrace .
she is a triggered thoughts that keeps looping inside my mind , the thoughts of her dreamy eyes and perfect budding lips tickles my soul , her love pierced my skin and dig deep into my soul eating me up like a parasite , she enveloped my heart and took it with her when she left but not knowing she left a part of her in me , upon closing my eyes , i could hear her laughter , bringing happiness laced with pain .
       When ever i saw her those feelings jumps out of my soul but could never be expressed because i lost her and she is long gone ,what a cruel world , i wonder how deep she got inside of me that made her irreplaceable , she tricked me in loving her with my whole but she never cared to love me as much as i did.
#Love hurts but its fun to think about
#I miss you my long lost lover

A STAR WITH A LOT OF DARKNESS

                                              
                  A STAR  WITH A LOT OF DARKNESS 
                                  INTRODUCTION :
            The rough thought of a certain star , in a certain time. 
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                  A certain star was born in a certain region of the atmosphere (NEBULA) in the 60's , filled with darkness from the onset of birth , even though its existence was battled in the outer space seen from the earth, saved by a mysterious black hole , the mother  was deluded not to conceive it cause the forces that govern the sky have seen how great this star would be when it shines out .
from the onset of conception the darkness has already surrounded the star trying to off it light , but this star has a higher power looking after it  , its conception was a success , small they said it was but with alot of light .
                  The star was a prominent star grouped into constellations and asterisms , it began its live as a dense cloud of gas and dust , trying to gain a proper name . from the onset of growth this star has already been fond of the galaxies , showing it self but little did it know it has so many enemies even though it's just a gas and dust . so many times the galaxies  around it has tried to evaporate it but it always escapes death .
                    The older the star gets it begins to release energy stopping it from contracting even more and causes it to shine , it already started engaging it self with the darkness , this star found love in the galaxy at least it thought it was love , a wild star , a wild love , a wild heart , loves makes it glow even more brighter than other stars , it was lost in the sight of love .
The darkness got a part of this star when its first love left it then comes the "THOUGHTS"  , everything started getting clearly , it knows about its enemies , it begins to think about the impossible would it be judged if it kills a snake . it know that its enemies keep plotting , it sees them and it fight them , it never backed  away from a fight , a warrior heart , it contains a lion , not knowing how wild it can get , angry speech brings about jerky words , it knows then that darkness reside in its light , demons filled in its mind , its reflection in the sky caused kayos , it starts to love darkness more than light but only love can bring it to the light . 
                      It knows that its love is greater than its darkness and love always conquers but the darkness always arises , human ventures into the solar system have turned to a constant switch on to the madness that lives in it .

    
                                  

FEAR IS AN IMAGINATION

LET US FIRST UNDERSTAND WHAT IS FEAR ?

DICTIONARY : an unpleasant emotion caused by the belief that someone or something is dangerous, likely to cause pain, or a threat.
    
From this definition we understand that first fear is just an emotion and an emotion is something that is not physical  caused by a belief that someone or something is dangerous ,  and likely can cause pain . we tend to become afraid because we have filled our mind with negative thought , or because  we  are not ritually clean because God created the mind as a detecting tool (conscience) and what you feed your thoughts it begins to imagine it and you become afraid of those things because your mind has already detected it as threat . 
when we feed our thought with positivity then  there shouldn't be fear cause the fear we feel most of the times is not real , nobody can describe fear unless something triggers it  . 
      We should only fear God because from our belief He is the creator of heaven and earth , so when the creator is for you  , why then should you fear man , or things around the world , because God is who that has control over everything , Before anything can happen , He is the one that orders are taken from  , as someone that has faith that God is creator of Heaven and Earth , i don't think there is a reason why you should be afraid. 
      Fear is the cause of most failures , because we invest our mind thinking that all our outcome will fail not knowing fully well that there is a higher power ,  when we understand the concept of this world that is when we would start winning .
      The foundation of every building is the stepping stone of a massive outcome , if you build your house in fear , because from spiritual understanding our body is a (temple of the  holy Spirit) so when you build your temple in fear , you can only give fear , so build your temple with words of the spirit because with the words of the spirit you can chase away fear , because fear is not of God . 
pick up courage today and invest your mind and soul where there is no fear or suffering , invest your mind in positive words , invest your mind in things of the spirit .
#Be fearless cause you are the son  and daughters of a king. 

THE POWER OF BELIEVE

Life is a tunnel , long , dark and many falls but understand that life is not meant to be easy because God has already said it , that before a man can eat he would sweat , don't give up or think you are not doing better , just know that as long as you are alive you are blessed , a man with sound health is much better than someone that got millions today and die tomorrow , don't envy no man cause we are all born different dates and that is how different our destinies are , believe in the work that you do , there is always a pay day for every hustle out there
#keep that hustle spirit alive .
#Listen to WHO DO YOU BELIEVE IN ?
#ALL PAC
#MOTIVATE YOUR SELF
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BELIEVERS ARE ACHIEVERS

first of all let us understand who a believer is :
Dictionary definition : To have confidence in the truth, the existence, or the reliability of something, although without absolute proof that one is right in doing so. 

My own Definition : A believer is one with understanding , a believer doesn't see success or failure a believer just hopes and no matter how tough the road becomes they never give up because they understand what they are doing they walk by faith instead of by sight , they don't care about critics , failures , success , all they care about is how many souls they have touched .
       A believer put all there effort in believing, they do not look back or have double mind about what they are after , they keeping hoping for success even when all they could see is failure . 

                       HOW TO BECOME A BELIEVER 

* First of all Acknowledge God : we acknowledge God because its through faith that we believe that God created the whole world , if you want to be a stronger believer you have to set your mind on something to fuel your believe , because if you do not have total faith in something you can not see, how can you achieve something you already seen.

* Develop an attitude of prayer , meditation :
what is Prayer : a solemn request for help or expression of thanks addressed to God or an object of worship.
what is Meditation : the action or practice of meditating.
       these are necessary to build your believe because with constant prayer / meditation on a said goal would help you actualize it example is a business man woke up one morning , he has no hope for the day cause as of his yesterday he didn't achieve any success , he woke in the morning thanked God for life , and asked God to help him make profit today on his sale , after some prayers , and meditation he believed and his hope got stronger even though he is not seeing clearly the outcome of the prayer and mediation but he believed in his heart that he is going to make sales , when he got to the market , all through the day he made no sale but at 4pm that day he met a customer that bought all his product , he was surprised cause he already lost hope for that day and was feeling down but success came to him when he least expected it . that is the power of prayer and meditation , because there is power in spoken words , speak positive words in your life and business daily.

* Focus your mind and energy on the goal :
when we fill our mind with positive thoughts , we tend to achieve more because our thoughts is where our success comes from, believe in your self and the goal you wish to achieve 

        The secret in achieving is in believing , it all starts with just a thought , bring that thing you feel is rubbish to the world , let them criticize it , let them curse you but remember nobody had it all at the very first step , remember that someone is out there looking out for you and your work ,  just know that one day that rubbish can become something , believe in God , believe in your self and the power of your mind .

LOVE THE KEY TO ALL MYSTERIES

                      Let us understand what is ''LOVE"  ?

Dictionary Definition of Love : love is an intense feeling of deep affection. it could be a deep romantic or sexual attachment . 

Psychological Definition of Love : American psychologist Zick Rubin sought to define love by psychometrics in the 1970s. His work states that three factors constitute love: attachment, caring, and intimacy.

Bibilical definition of Love : 1 Corinthians 13:4 ;
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
      
            from this definitions we have understand puerly what love is and what its all about ,
According to Me : faith is love and love is faith , to clear the air on this. 
                                           
                        let us understand what is ''FAITH"


Dictionary Definition of Faith : Faith is complete trust or confidence in someone or something.

According to Wikipedia : “Faith is confidence or trust in a person, thing, deity, or in the doctrines or teachings of a religion or view (e.g. having strong political faith). It can also be belief that is not based on proof.

Bibilical definition of Faith : Hebrews 11:3 ;
It is by faith that we understand that the universe was created by God's word, so that what can be seen was made out of what cannot be seen.
         
           plainly from this definitions i hope we have understood what faith is all about , because without faith one can not achieve love , because true love is not based on what we can see or  touch , its based upon faith , because nobody have seen love with there naked eyes its a feeling from the heart and when one dosen't have faith that he or she can love then it would be hard to achieve love .

                           what lack of LOVE causes  

1. We loose peace of mind
2. We loose true happiness , joy .
3. Anger ,
4. Lonliness 
5. Depression 
6. Hatred
7. Heart break e.t.c
                                                 
                   why can't certain people show LOVE
     
from our discussion we have understood what love is and what attributes to love , in the sense that faith works in hand with love , most people that can  not offer love is either heart broken , sad , angry and in conclusion dosen't have "FAITH" or lost it due to some situations that they have been through .
Before one can be able to achieve love or practice love , there should be faith because with faith you understand that you are not seeing this clearly enough but you beleieve that the probably outcome would be success , faith gives us understanding that you are chasing a wind , and when you chase a wind ,you  might fall , you might get hurt , you might  feel pain but you keep chasing this wind until it becomes something you want it to be , most people can't practice love cause they don't love self , when  a man or woman is not in love with there self it would be hard to love someone else , but if you love your self this would  give you faith to love someone else  .
            
                    why is LOVE a Necessity in Life ? 

First we have to ask our self what have we gained by not loving ? , when its said that good things start with love , love does not hurt or harm , with love come peace , happiness ,joy  etc 
love have so much power to heal anything , think of it Jesus Christ sacrificed His life for the whole world , just to save us sinners , what love is greater than this ? . Love is the key to most questions in this world because if we can show love to others , everything would be right , country would not fight each other , brother would not kill brother , alot of things would become right if there is love , love can change evil to good . love has so much power  , give love a chance today .https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ry5vs331sMY

 

Happy New Month

To be blessed you will have to learn how to be grateful for everything you have in life , remember what praises can do to a man , let me give an example a man came to a wedding feast and what he had with him was a few bucks and his plans was not to spend it there ,but due to the way the MC was praising him , he brought out the few buck he had with him and spray it on  the couple just because of how he was praised and this motivated him to bring out his last bucks , think of how this motivated a man , then think how it could motivate God , be grateful for everything you have that is the only way to get more . stop complaining thank God for what you have which money can not buy which is "life''

                                                    #happy New Month